When the ground we stand on cannot be trusted. When our best technologies fail. When everything that could go wrong, does. When watching the news makes our ears want to stop hearing, makes our eyes want to be blind. When the quake shakes your core too and your very spirit is shifted 2 meters to the right. When we are afraid our hearts will rip clean out of our chests… its tempting to just to let it happen. To stop up that heart and tuck it away somewhere less risky than planet earth…
Today I did. Today, I place this heart in bigger hands. I choose to remind myself that it is all His and that it is still His. That though I cannot see my way to peace with it yet, I will trust that those in the midst of it will find some. I will pray fervently and I will do all I can to be one with those muddling in their broken hearts. I will read this book to my kids over and over to remind myself the point of a soft heart. Remembering that the best and most beautiful are also sensed by that same aching chunk in my chest. Reminding myself to let go of the need to control and understand…Those are the responsibility of a mind much greater than mine and a heart much softer (even if today that is hard to reconcile).
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